This has been the weirdest week. I had a burst of energy at the end of the previous week through last weekend and into the first of this week. I got a lot of cleaning done in my house. I really have had no energy for the past several months to do anything except what I absolutely had to do—like grocery shopping and laundry. I started going for morning walks, 3/4 mile each day, and even managing 1 mile on two consecutive days. I even managed to spend more quality time with Leah Rose, working with her on the laptop, or reading books. I was really excited about my new found energy, getting on a good schedule now that school had started. But by the time Thursday came along, I was worn out. I don’t know what happened. I barely made it the 3/4 mile around the block.
Then I had a dentist appointment Thursday morning. The appointment itself went well, it was for a filling. Something that I haven’t had to have done in years, and I think it was just to redo an old one. The dentist told me that this particular tooth seemed to be very weak and he didn’t know why. He also told me that if it didn’t hold, we might have to put a crown on it. My mind kind of reeled at that. I’m already looking at thousands of dollars in medical bills I’m paying this year for dental surgery for my daughter, and for the physical exam I had a few weeks ago, not only for the fibromyalgia, but for the breathing problems I was having. I’m also starting my chiropractic treatment again next Monday, and that is going to be more out of pocket medical expenses. Sorry, don’t mean to bore you with the details of my financial woes, but here goes the rest of it… dead beat dad owes probably $40,000 in court-ordered child support for a special needs child (I haven’t seen a penny from him), and ex-husband hasn’t paid court-ordered alimony in several months. As a result, I’m unable to pay some of my credit card bills, thus I have been receiving a regimen of credit card bill collector robocalls, starting at 8:00 in the morning, and ending somewhere about 8:00 or 8:30 in the evening.
Okay, so enough financial misery, and back to the dentist appointment. I’m in a funk over the possible crown, the whole side of my face is numb, and I’m drooling. I’ve got a hole in my lip when I sip my Dr. Pepper. I needed a bib, for goodness sake! The dentist said not to eat for an hour, so I waited for an hour, and I really didn’t feel like eating. Which is scary, because I always feel like eating,… something,… anything,… anytime. I had no energy, was dizzy, and nauseated, and didn’t feel like I could close my mouth properly. Did I mention that when I was putting my sandals on that morning that my foot slipped, and I twisted my ankle? Luckily I was standing in the doorway of the closet, and was able to catch myself, but I hit my hand pretty hard. My Blackberry went flying, but no damage, thank goodness… errr, rather, no “new” damage.. lol. I tried eating a very soft biscuit, but it was very hard to eat. It felt like my teeth weren’t fitting together well with my mouth closed. I’ve eaten nothing but soft foods for 3 days… green beans, mashed potatoes, rice, soft biscuits. It is getting really, really old.
Today, I am not nauseous or dizzy, but my tooth still feels weird. I still don’t want to eat, and I got up at 7:30 this morning. I never get out of the bed on Saturday before 10 or 11:00. Good grief. I’m feeling way out of whack. My daughter has her cleaning appointment at the dentist on Monday, so if my tooth is still feeling weird, I may see if I can talk to the dentist about it while we are there.
I haven’t seen another adult human being, except the bus driver, the para-pro, and the lawn guy in almost a week. I’m glued to the Wordscraper app in facebook (Anyone up for a friendly game of Scrabble?)
Last weekend I had a disagreement with a friend and we said our piece to each other, then forgave each other, or so I thought. I haven’t heard from this friend in a week. It is a little disturbing because I don’t know if we are speaking now or not. Then I read my horoscope for today. I don’t put a lot of faith in horoscopes, but I read them for fun. Sometimes… well, sometimes, they have a hint of truth.
Sometimes things we don’t want to deal with must be handled, and this is one of those days, Aries. It will probably start off with procrastination and attempts to talk yourself out of working this problem out, but eventually, you will find yourself in the midst of things. It is probably a relationship centered argument, and it does not have a very hopeful conclusion. If you are in a committed relationship, you may find yourself negotiating or discussing property matters, and there are other variants in this equation, but most of you will argue with a partner. Daily Horoscope
You may feel as if you must stand up to a formidable person today, but actually it may be you who is the tough cookie. You might not even realize if you offend someone’s sensibilities because you are so determined to stick to your agenda and accomplish your goals. Nevertheless, you could be more effective if you soften your stance and take other people’s feelings into consideration, too. Twittascope
Um, I’m difficult to get along with, I have moral standards that are on the prudish side, and I procrastinate — BIG TIME, and I have no concept of a financial budget. I think my relationship with my friend may be over. I think I’m going to be the “tough cookie” and just leave it be, no softness or relenting here.
One other thing on my mind this week is connecting with other families or caregivers of children with rare genetic disorders, not really the children on the autism spectrum, or ADHD/ADD, but with different issues. Don’t get me wrong, the autistic mom friends I’ve made online have been great. They are wonderful moms, but I need some interaction with those other moms in a different arena. I’ll let you know how that goes.
Also, next week, I’m going to try something new. I’m going to the open meeting of the MOMS club at the Methodist church. This will be something out of my comfort zone. I don’t do well in “group” settings. Wish me luck.
I’ve got some product reviews I’m working on, and some paid surveys that I’m going to check out.
Oh, and I forgot to mention, I made a dress for Leah. I’ve just got to add the ruffle, and it will be done. I’m also going to start making some more of my antique angel jewelry pins this week too.
Thanks for sticking with my ramblin’ Saturday thoughts. Hope you have a good weekend, and a great week.
Current Mood: Bored
I'm so sorry you are going through these financial troubles! I commend you for not letting it get you totally down and for having the strength to still go out and try new things like your church meeting. Great attitude!
Wow, so sorry to hear about the ex not doing his part in supporting you and his child. I can't understand why men feel that is acceptable. I hope that the court does something about that!
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